This is a good one because it captures the essence of all "negativity". The power of positive attraction is just that, attraction. You only get in return what you put out there in the first place. How can you expect to receive all good things when you look in the mirror every morning and think, "God, I wish I could lose 20 lbs" or "sheesh, those bags under my eyes are getting bigger"? You must embrace yourself for who you are, gray hairs, laugh lines, muffin tops and all! So, yes, today is the day I release all judgements I have placed on myself!!
I mentioned last post about finding my temporarily misplaced juju. Now some may call it, karma, mojo, energy, chi, whatever. It's the sparkly force field that surrounds you and eminates outward carrying with it the intent you have place upon it, good bad or otherwise. I like the word "juju". It's a fun word with a slight implication of magic. It's crystally, and for those of you know really know me, I hold lots of stock in all things crystally. From here on out, I will refer to my positive intent as "juju" (I reserve the right to use "mojo" for motivation).
As I said, your juju carries with it whatever intent you have placed upon it. Apparently, my intent has been a little tarnished. Which leads me back to my affirmation. Having moved to Paradise, I have been slapped in the face with the reality of what some people consider....pretty people. While beauty is in the eye of the beholder, there are roaming eyes everywhere out here! Of course, many of the eye catchers are twenty-something blonds (male or female, no mattah), who have never experienced a dose of reality, let alone responsibility, in their exsistence, nor have they eaten a carb in their lives. It's like the proverbial comparison of apples to oranges. When you have real life responsibility, you have real life stress. That stress takes it's toll in various forms. For me, it's lack of motivation...mojo. This comes in the form of tarnished juju, negative thoughts toward my mirror and overall lack of mojo when it comes to exercise! I recently read an article which explained how to go from feeling happy (where I'm at now) to feeling euphoric (where I've been and so very much want to be again). It said, in a nutshell, that you have to give up control (GASP), envision your best self (I have "skinny" pictures all over my mirror) and stop judging (does that mean everyone or just myself?). The envisioning my best self part, I can handle. I can see me as the happy go lucky, always smiling, totally fit, extremely energetic gal I was just a few short years ago. I can also handle a little of the stop judging, at least the judging of others. I never used to be one to judge people. I mean, come on, who are you as a person to sit on your high throne and judge another guy? This leads back to the pretty people in Paradise. I truly feel that my judgement of others (good or bad) has lead me to have a completely negative judgement about myself.
Giving up control is a totally impossible thing for me, at least right now. Control is about the only thing that I do have here for certain. It leads to my question, why do I have to have so much control over every aspect of my life when I live in a place where control is essentially non-existent. I mean, the tides are ever changing (no control), the sun shines, yes, but there's cloud cover and vog and, gulp, rain (no control). It's an island so the traffic gets, wait for it, out of control. The temperature goes from a very chilly 64 degrees in the morning to a sweaty 85 by noon (again, no control). You are probably thinking right about now, "is this girl serious? She's complaining about perfect weather and beautiful blue ocean". Haha, I know, I know. But do you get my point? There's no controlling anything external here, or anywhere. The only thing I can control is my thinking.
Recently, I've attracted some pretty crystally people to my life. Some are back and some are new. I've shared my experience and knowledge of the power of positive attraction with them and things are turning for the better in their lives. It gives me so much pleasure, and motivation, to help people. I think that's why I became a nurse. Helping without the expectation of something in return is quite a rewarding feeling. To see the changes you have made is even better. This week, I hope to take the positive outcomes of my friends and use that energy to remove the tarnish from my juju (ironically, I also bought jewelery cleaner yesterday....no relation, but it does remove tarnish). I plan to grab those damn boot straps and get off my butt to exercise. I plan to look in the mirror and fall helplessly, hopelessly in love with the woman I see. I plan to let things be as they will be and enjoy every minute of it.
"Go confidently in the direction of your dreams. Live the life you have imagined". I don't know who said this, but I think it's a great quote. People closest to me know that my whole adult life I have dreamed of living in Hawaii. The very first day I stepped foot on this island in 1989, I knew I would live here. Now that I am here, I'm going to live the life I imagined. I'm going to embrace the essence of Aloha and breathe in the island magic. My chin is to the sun, my toes are in the sand. Life's a beach, and then you live on one......
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